push and pull

well i seem to make a pudding out of everything...
am more like push me ..pull you..does not make sense does it
it would if you were in my place...am a mere puppet..do watever others tell u to and am called headstrong by my family !!!
in an attempt to please everyone ..i end up messing matters with everyone and in the whole process who suffers the most ---ess ess ME!!! (that was stolen from Anupam Kher's dialogue in Bend it like Beckham )..ne ways...this is going to last me a life time i guess .and has already lasted me the life i've had till now..i know it'll happen again if i handle a situation in a way...but so be it..can't stop doing it can I !! adios