push and pull

well i seem to make a pudding out of everything...
am more like push me ..pull you..does not make sense does it
it would if you were in my place...am a mere puppet..do watever others tell u to and am called headstrong by my family !!!
in an attempt to please everyone ..i end up messing matters with everyone and in the whole process who suffers the most ---ess ess ME!!! (that was stolen from Anupam Kher's dialogue in Bend it like Beckham )..ne ways...this is going to last me a life time i guess .and has already lasted me the life i've had till now..i know it'll happen again if i handle a situation in a way...but so be it..can't stop doing it can I !! adios

Buds that bloom

it's unfolding
it's blooming
the looming cresent
the velvety touch
the fragrant essence
complete the whole
...but there's an shadow
...an eye upon it....
will it bloom..it will i guess

it is beautiful to see
it is wonderful to feel
but it is painful too
for it is them not me...